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Shelley Lubben
Former Porn Actress and Prostitute

I was born in 1968 and grew up in southern California. I am the eldest of three children and was born a strong-willed child with a “spirited” personality. The first 8 years of life my family attended a good church where I learned about God and Jesus. As a little girl, I knew and loved Jesus very much.

When I turned 9 years old things changed in our family. We moved to Glendora and left the church and friends we knew and loved. My parents stopped attending church and our family drifted away from God and each other. I grew up not having much of a relationship with either of my parents, although they were not bad people. Much of our our family time was spent sitting in front of the television. Our family loved to watch television. I still remember most of the episodes from the 70′s and 80′s shows. I watched a lot of television and from it began to develop wrong and harmful thinking. My Mother always said the tv was the best babysitter.

Growing up, I was different than other kids. I was highly creative and writing poetry and short stories at a young age. I was very frustrated because I had no place to channel my creative energy. My parents didn’t involve me in extracurricular activities and most of the time I was very bored. At 6 years old, I wrote, directed, produced and “starred” in plays I put on at my school. My first grade teacher saw the creativity in me. She told my mother that she was amazed by me and she wanted to see where I was when I was in my 30′s. She believed I would become a Hollywood actress or movie producer.

I was also peculiar in the fact that I began masturbating and had sexual tendencies at a very young age. I was sexually abused by a girl and her teenage brother when I was 9 years old and from then on had several sexual encounters with both girls and boys before age 18. Sex became confusing to me. Sex meant “love” to me as it felt good to be wanted by someone and receive attention but at the same time I felt dirty. I didn’t recognize until later that I had been sexually violated as a child.

As a teenager, I looked for love in boys and alcohol and started having sex at age 16. My teenage years were filled with constant yelling and arguing between my parents and I. I had a mother who was often mad at me and a father who seemed busy to have a relationship with me. I don’t remember anyone saying “I love you” during those years. My parents weren’t bad people but I felt they didn’t take much interest in me and I became a rebellious resentful teenager who acted out to get attention. But instead of get their attention, my parents preferred to maintain peace in the home. So I was allowed to do things like dress up as a playboy bunny at age 15. I was allowed to date boys they didn’t know. At 15 I was allowed to go to a prom with an 18 yr old boy who got me drunk for the first time. This began a lifestyle of partying for me and I started hanging out at nightclubs using drugs at 16. My parents knew I had alcohol problems but they didn’t know what to do with me. We attempted family counseling but it was short lived. So I went searching for a new family and found “love” in the wrong crowd, drinking alcohol regularly and getting high on marijuana. My parents went through a lot of anguish because of my actions, and finally–being at their wits end– told me to leave home at age 18.

I ended up in the San Fernando Valley with no food and no money. A “nice” man saw I was upset and told me how sorry he was. He put his arm around me and consoled me and then offered to help me. But then he told me he knew a man who wanted to have sex with me and he’d give me money. I was still in shock and so full of rage because my parents kicked me out that I didn’t care anymore so I accepted his offer. I sold myself for $35 and a life of prostitution began for me.

Before long I met a madam who introduced me to the “glamorous” side of prostitution. She taught me every trick of the trade and how to manipulate men. At first it seemed exciting with men giving me money, jewelry and gifts but soon it became a life of slavery. I found myself having bizarre sex with strangers and began to hate it. Clients would do things like break condoms on purpose or follow me around and stalk me. One man tried to kill me and hit me with his truck. Another man carried a gun whenever he was with me and threatened to kill me if I didn’t perform certain sex acts. Men made demands on me and I was constantly having to lie in order to get out of very frightening situations. I became a professional liar and could literally lie my way out of anything. I even lied my way out of several DUI’s and several near death experiences. This is the standard for the sex industry and is the main survival tool for any stripper, prostitute or porn actress.

The sex industry lifestyle was getting worse and worse for me and I felt like I had no where to turn. Jesus kept tugging at my heart but I ignored Him. I figured, God wasn’t taking care of me so I had to do what ever I could to survive.

This vicious cycle of working as a prostitute and exotic dancer in Southern California lasted for eight years. While working as a prostitute, I became pregnant three times from clients and it devastated me. A million questions formed in my mind each time. How could I let this happen? How would I take care of the baby? Should I have an abortion? Where could I turn to? I didn’t even know who the fathers were for two of the pregnancies. Then I remembered Jesus and I begged Him, “Please help me”. God comforted me and I knew I could never kill a life so I kept my baby. Two of the pregnancies ended in miscarriage but one of them did not and I had my first daughter, Tiffany, at age 20. She is mixed with Asian and is very beautiful. I tried to go back to doing only exotic dancing, but prostitution crept up on me and was hard to resist, especially as a single mother.

After a few years as a single mother and working as a prostitute and dancer, I began to drink very heavily and developed a terrible addiction to alcohol and drugs. Tiffany grew up a sad little girl neglected and her innocence was often violated. As she grew older she realized strange men were “visiting” me and was angry with me. I use to make her hide in her bedroom while I “entertained” clients. She also saw me in “peculiar” relationships with women. She didn’t totally understand it all but she definitely was subjected to living with a lewd wild woman. I was such a bad mother, that I use to give Tiffany a beeper and make her go to the park while I pulled tricks. She was only four years old.

I began to see myself as a complete failure. I lost all self worth and hated myself for being a horrible mother. I was so tired from always trying to survive. There was never any rest from the lifestyle. Men followed me home, slashed my tires, called me at all hours, came over drunk in the middle of the night, and even attempted to kill me. To function, I always had a big bottle of Jack Daniels on hand. Sometimes I’d go sit in a corner with my bottle and cry out totally drunk to Jesus, “Please help me!”, but it seemed He wasn’t there. Yet I always felt a strange “protection” around me.

As my painful journey progressed, I became involved in the adult film industry. I learned I could make quick easy money and it seemed safer and more legal than prostitution. Many of the prostitutes I knew were getting raped and sent to jail and I didn’t want that to happen to me. Also by this time I was a hardcore alcoholic and drug user and pretty incapable of making rational decisions.

When I did my first adult film something very “dark” came over me. I could almost hear the devil say, “See Shelley, I will make you famous and THEN everyone will love you.” A powerful strange force enabled me to perform at intense levels only to come off the high and find myself shattered from the shame and degradation. I loved the attention but hated myself at the same time. I loved to hear how great I was but hated the brutal sex. I began to do very hardcore movies and only more drugs and alcohol could get me through them. It was like I had something to prove to the world and to everyone who had ever hurt me and when the porn industry opened their big arms to me and invited me into their “family”, I finally found acceptance. But the price I paid for family “membership” was the price of my own life. I sold what was left of my heart, mind and femininity to the porn industry and the woman and person in me died completely on the porn set.

I also risked becoming infected with the AIDS virus like other porn stars did. I played a crazy and deadly game of Russian roulette with my life. The industry did not and still does NOT enforce condom usage so STD’s and HIV were and are still a high risk among porn actors and actresses. In May 2004, The Adult Industry Medical Foundation (AIM), which offers monthly voluntary testing of porn performers for HIV, announced that five pornography “actors” had tested positive for the AIDS virus. I was luckier than those actors. God had spared me from contracting HIV. I did however catch herpes, a non-curable sexually transmitted disease. I wanted to end my life. At the time I caught herpes, I had no help and no one to help me deal with the disease. But since AIM came on the scene, the organization claims to have lowered some of the spread of HIV in the adult industry and increased awareness among performers. But the truth remains, porn actors continue to risk their lives and spread disease. In an interview on Court TV with AIM founder, Sharon Mitchell, also former porn actress, admitted that among porn actors today there are “7% HIV, and 12-28% STDs. Herpes is always about 66%. People are medicated with acyclovir for herpes, which is very effective in preventing the herpes outbreaks. Chlamydia and gonorrhea, however, along with hepatitis, seem to stick to everything from dildos to flat surfaces to hands, so, pardon my expression, but we are usually up to our asses in chlamydia.”

Nothing is more devastating than to receive a positive test for a non-curable sexually transmitted disease. I wanted to end my life.

I swallowed a number of prescription pills and sliced my wrists but it seemed no matter what I did, I couldn’t die. The pain was overwhelming and I had terrible mood swings. One minute I walked around like a zombie and then the next minute I’d throw fits of rage, yelling and breaking things. I was mad at God, hated myself and hated my parents. Only alcohol and drugs could soothe my pain. I cried out to Jesus to help me and tried to give up the lifestyle but within a week I’d be back in the vicious cycle. I lost all hope and hated my life. I was completely hopeless and life was utterly meaningless. After becoming infected with Herpes, I quietly left the porn industry but went back to prostitution to survive.

In 1994 I met a man named Garrett. He was 22 years old and innocent compared to me. I told him I charged money to date. He pretended to need my “services” for a bachelor party so I gave him my card. He called me often to go out but I kept saying no. I wasn’t able to have a normal relationship because my heart was completely black and cold toward all men. Later on though, for some GOD reason, I changed my mind and went out with him. We became friends instantly. As we spent time together, my broken black heart started to feel again. I remember feeling actual physical pain in my heart when Garrett tried to get close to me.

I tried to keep the relationship distant but it was hard because Garrett made me feel like a little girl again. He’d come over and we’d get high on meth and play checkers and cards for hours. We were like two little kids having fun. I hadn’t had “fun” since I was a little girl. Garrett and I would talk about everything and one day we both brought up Jesus. Both of us grew up as kids loving and knowing Jesus Christ. I learned that Garrett was raised in a Christian home and grew up attending Christian school. For two people who met at a bar, this was an amazing “coincidence”. I opened up about the trauma I had been through and he was there for me. He knew I did porn and was a prostitute but he felt so bad for me. He said He wanted to rescue me. I never met any man like Garrett. He saw something in me no one else did. He was a friend to a prostitute, just like Jesus. We knew God was working in our lives so we turned back to Jesus and got married on February 14, 1995.

Our new life together began as a total disaster. Garrett lost his job after we were married because he was high on drugs at work. We had to go on welfare and receive financial help. Everything got worse and the temptation for me to go back to the old lifestyle was overwhelming. But God had a better idea. Garrett joined the Army.

After basic training, Garrett returned a new man, free from drug addiction and on his way to Fort Lewis military base in Washington state. I became pregnant and gave birth to our daughter, Teresa, in 1997. I was able to quit drinking during the pregnancy but soon went back to alcohol.

Every time I held my new baby, I was reminded how utterly rejected I felt by my parents and all the men and women who abused me. God allowed me to feel the deep pain so He could heal me but I couldn’t handle that pain. I grabbed alcohol instead. But the pain was getting worse so I went for counseling at the Army mental health clinic and was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Impulse Control Disorder, Alcohol Dependence, Depressive Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I was prescribed zoloft, sleeping pills, lithium and counseling. I was given anger management videos to watch which only made me more angry! I went through the Army’s substance abuse program but still drank. I was also diagnosed with early cervical cancer and told I needed to have surgery. The consequences of the sex industry were catching up with me. I wanted to give up. Nothing was working!! But God had a better plan.

God led Garrett and I to attend an awesome church called Champions Centre in Tacoma, Washington where we were taught how to live a champion life. The church is known for building Champions for life through the wisdom of God’s Word. I was taught how to live a life where I could overcome ANYTHING because with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. With God, I had true forgiveness from all my sins and a chance to grow into a whole new person without being perfect first. That was a relief! I learned that God loved me unconditionally, regardless of my past, and even had a plan for my future. God had a plan for my life? It was like someone turned the light on for me.

In November, 1999, I gave birth to our daughter, Abigail, and though I drank alcohol during part of the pregnancy, God spared her life. After she was born, God FINALLY answered my prayers and took my alcohol addiction away. I began sobriety on April 9, 2000, and it was a very special time in my life. I started to hunger to know God more and to learn everything about being a “normal” woman. I started reading books on how to be a great mom and wife and how to cook and take care of my home. I watched other women to learn how they did laundry, how they dressed, how they talked to their husbands and their kids. I was a perpetual EAVESDROPPER for many years. I would be standing in the meat section of the grocery store and listen to the lady next to me describe how to cook a pot roast and then I’d run home and try it! I hung out in the grocery store just to learn!! Literally, I probably have over 100 mentors who don’t even know how much they mentored me. I had to start ALL OVER from scratch and rebuild my life and learn how to be a normal person living in a normal society.

I also practiced God’s principles in everything I did and began to experience real joy for the first time in over 10 years!! God also helped me learn web design so I could have a sense of accomplishment and use my creativity. I owned and operated my own web design business for 4 years. I also began attending college and am almost completed with my Bachelor’s in Theology and Counseling degree.

Because I chose to follow Him wholeheartedly, He blessed everything I touched just like His Word promises:

Jn 13:17 Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.

After walking in that first day to the Champion center broken and shattered, eight years later I walked out a Champion woman healed and excited to live life! God restored me from drugs, alcohol addiction, painful memories, mental illness, sexual addiction, sexual trauma, and the guilt and shame from my past. God took me out of the old life, offered me a new life, and though I couldn’t see it in the beginning, I put my hand in His and took a chance on Him. That was the best choice I ever made!

God also restored my femininity and healed my sexuality, which is a major miracle for me. After doing prostitution and porn I lost ability to function sexually. The fact that I can enjoy a healthy sexual relationship now is an absolute miracle. God also healed me of the non-curable disease Herpes (HSV 1-2). I was part of a special military study for pregnant women with herpes at Madigan Army Medical Center in 1996 and when I was tested they said I couldn’t be in the study because there was no Herpes virus in my blood. Even though I had become infected with Genital Herpes in the porn industry in 1994, the test came back negative! I also am cancer free as the doctors were able to remove all the cervical cancer. He’s Jehovah-Rophe the God that heals us!

God also healed our marriage in a remarkable way. Garrett and I have a beautiful and loving relationship and are best friends!

God has done many other miracles in my family as well. Garrett has a great job so I am able to stay home and be a Mother and do outreach to porn stars and porn addicts.. Our three beautiful daughters are being raised as Champions. My eldest daughter Tiffany, who is now 20, has forgiven me and allows me to be a Mother to her. She has overcome many things in her life and now shares her story with others to inspire and encourage them. I am SO thankful I didn’t have an abortion because Tiffany is a beautiful brilliant young woman with so much to offer. God also restored my relationship with my parents and brother. God is good!

As you can see, God has been working very miraculously in my life these past thirteen years. I did have to go through eight hard years of recovery. I had to make the choice to start my life over and believe what God said about me, not the lies of the devil or the lies I believed about myself. God became my true Father and He taught me how to love, forgive, and look to Him for my identity, not my past. I also learned how to live a successful life by practicing God’s principles in everything. Whatever God’s Word said about it, that settled it for me. I became a powerful new creature through the power of Jesus Christ, a Champion for life!

God now sends me out to proclaim to the world the reality of His awesome love. How He made each one of us in His image and that we are completely loved and accepted no natter what we’ve done. How He sent His Son Jesus to free us from drugs, alcoholism, sexual addiction, rejection and all the lies of Satan. I love to show the world, that YES God took a porn star and prostitute and made a Champion out of her. God is the best Father and wants all of His children to find their way back home to Him so He can heal them and raise them up to be Champions too. But it’s a choice only YOU can make.

I also want everyone to know that whatever God did for me, He will do for you. He’ll do this because He LOVES you and sent His Son Jesus in order to give you a whole new life. All you have to do is come to Jesus and learn from Him.

Mt 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Do you want rest for your souls? I know I did. I was sick and tired of being beat up by life. I was tired of living everyday in survival mode. I just wanted peace and to find real love but the world couldn’t give it to me. I searched for love in men, in porn, in fame and riches, in drugs and alcohol and I STILL came up empty. All I wanted was a normal life. Then I discovered the truth:

Jesus came to give you life and give it more abundantly (John 10:10).

Sure enough, I FINALLY found the life I always wanted.

Why not put your trust in God and His Son Jesus and really experience the abundant life? It may not happen overnight, but I promise you, it WILL happen. I know this because it happened for me. I am living proof that God exists, that He loves YOU no matter what you’ve done, and that He has a perfect plan for your life. Please click here to learn more about God and His awesome love for you.

Out of Pornography and Into the Light

Shelley Lubben was born the eldest of three children in Pasadena, CA, in 1968.

“The first eight years of my childhood my family was involved in a good church where Sunday school teachers taught me about Jesus,” Shelley recalls. “As a little girl, I loved Jesus very much.”

When Shelley turned nine, the family moved to Glendora, CA, stopped attending church and drifted away from God and each other. “God was no longer first in our home and our family began to suffer,” she says.

Shelley continued to attend the Baptist church down the corner with her younger brother and sister. However, with no spiritual support or encouragement, she lost interest by 14.

She had been introduced to sexuality when she was nine by a girl and her teenage brother. Sex became confusing to Shelley. Sex meant “love” to her, as it felt good to be wanted by someone and receive attention. At the same time, she felt dirty.

“I wanted my parents’ affection more than anything but it didn’t seem like I received what I needed,” Shelley says. “I started to feel resentment toward them, and anger entered my heart.”

Shelley became more involved in the party scene, and by age 16, she was sexually active, drinking alcohol and smoking marijuana.

“We fought constantly in our home,” she says. “There was nothing but yelling and nagging during my teenage years.”

Shelley felt her mother was mad at her most of the time, and her father was too busy to have a relationship with his eldest child other than to yell at her. So Shelley acted out to get their attention but her parents preferred to maintain peace. So they allowed Shelley to dress up as a Playboy bunny at 15, date boys they didn’t know, etc.

Her parents went through much anguish because of Shelley, and finally at their wits’ end, they kicked her out during her senior year of high school. With nowhere to go, she ended up staying with a guy she barely knew. “I had no money, and there was almost no food in the place I was staying. For the first time in my life, I knew what it meant to be really hungry,” Shelley recalls. “I became desperate for any help someone could give me.”

After a month Shelley met a man who said he could “help” her. He told Shelley he knew a man who would pay her to have sex with him. She was still so in shock and in such rage at her parents that she accepted his offer. At 18 she sold herself for $35, and she began a life of prostitution.

PROSTITUTION

Soon Shelley moved in with a madam and worked as a professional escort making “very good money” on and off for eight years while continuing to work as a prostitute and exotic dancer.

At first it was exciting when men gave her money, jewelry and gifts but it soon became a life of slavery. She found herself having bizarre sex with strangers. Clients stalked her. One tried to kill her and hit her with his truck. She constantly had to lie to get out of very frightening situations.

“The whole time Jesus kept reaching out to me, but I ignored Him. I figured God wasn’t taking care of me, so I had to do whatever I could to survive,” she says.

By 19 Shelley was pregnant with a client’s baby and was devastated. “The reality hit me that I was pregnant from a prostitution act,” she says. But Shelley decided to keep her baby and at age 20 gave birth to her first daughter, Tiffany.

Shelley maintained her lifestyle of prostitution and dancing but the pressure was overwhelming. She turned to alcohol, cocaine and other drugs to cope. Her young daughter suffered terribly.

“Tiffany grew up a sad little girl who was neglected and whose innocence was often violated.” Lubben says. “I even gave Tiffany a beeper and made her to go to the park while I pulled tricks. She was only four years old.”

Shelley cried out to God often, desperate for an answer to her wrecked life. She felt guilty for her lifestyle but just couldn’t break the cycle. “I began to look at myself as a total and complete failure. I lost all self worth and hated myself for being a horrible mother,” Shelley recalls. “Many times I cried out to Jesus to help me, promising that if He did, I would serve Him. I sat in the ruins and ashes of my life wondering where is my Jesus?”

But Shelley was addicted to the money of her profession and her sin only got worse.

PORN ACTRESS
At 24, Shelley was introduced to the adult film industry by a friend promising “easy money.” “I figured it was more legal than prostitution, so why not,” she says.

She went to the studio, did one amateur porn movie and was immediately promoted to professional films with some of the most famous porn stars. Looking back, Shelley says, “There was a satanic anointing on me to do those films. It’s not something that the ‘average’ person could do without it.”

The last straw was when she caught herpes, and she wanted to end her life. “I tried overdosing on pills, slicing my wrists and drinking myself to death but it seemed no matter what I did, I couldn’t die. I was mad at God, mad at myself and hated my parents,” Shelley recalls. “There never seemed to be any break from the pain or any help to come along. I would cry out to Jesus for hours and give up my whole lifestyle, only to find that within a week I would be right back in the vicious cycle of sin.”

Shelley felt hopeless and was caught in the industry’s vicious and unforgiving claws. After she became infected with herpes, she quietly left the porn industry but went back to prostitution to survive.

Watch Shelley’s testimony online.

MARRIAGE

In 1994 Shelley met Garrett at a bar. “We became best friends and hung out all the time together,” she says. “We’d talk about life, and one day we both brought up Jesus.”

Garrett knew she was a prostitute and a drunk. “I never met any man like Garrett. He loved me and saw something in me despite my ugliness,” Shelley says. “He wanted to be a friend to a prostitute. He reminded me so much of Jesus.”

The whole time God was in their midst, working through each other’s pain (Garrett grew up in a Christian home and fell away from God due to his parents’ divorce).

On February 14, 1995, Garrett and Shelley got married at city hall. “We knew God had put us together, so we got married and turned back to Jesus.”

Shelley quit prostituting but, after Garrett lost his job, they had to go on welfare.

“Everything seemed to get worse, and the temptation for me to go back to the old lifestyle in order to support us was overwhelming,” she says.

Garrett joined the Army and returned from basic training a changed man with a new lease on life, no longer addicted to drugs. Shelley was still a mess with years of healing ahead of her.

She soon found out she was pregnant with her second child. After Teresa was born, Shelley dove into depression and reached to alcohol for help instead of God.

“I ended up visiting the Army mental health clinic regularly where I was prescribed Zoloft, sleeping pills and lithium for being bipolar, with impulse control disorder, alcohol dependence and PSTD,” she says.

DELIVERANCE

Shelley was involved with church and seriously working on her relationship with God but she just couldn’t break the cycle of addiction. “I still had to face the demons of my past in order to step into my future,” she says.

For the next two years, Shelley battled alcoholism and nothing she tried seemed to help. In 2000, Shelley says she had a “divine intervention” with God, and He spoke to her loud and clear: “The next time you drink, you will die.”

“We returned to Washington from Texas after six months, and I was totally free from alcohol and cigarettes,” she says.

Attending a powerful church in Tacoma, Shelley says, “I did have to go through several hard years of grieving and healing from the devastation of my past. I had to fight the good fight of faith by applying the Word of God to everything. When Satan would remind me of all the old porn movies, I would remind him that I was this new creature who never did porn movies. Whatever I had to overcome, I would read what God’s Word said about it and that settled it for me.

“He has completely restored me. I am totally free from drugs, alcohol, bad memories, mental illness, sexual trauma, guilt from the past, and everything from the old life. He even healed me from the non-curable disease herpes,” Shelley proclaims. “Yes, God took a porn star and prostitute and made a champion out of her. He cleaned her up and taught her how to be a great mom, a loving wife and a minister. He restored my health, my mind and most of all He gave me a new heart.”

Watch Shelley’s testimony online.

PORN FILMS – LAST FRONTIER

Shelley says that as a prostitute she could have gotten killed, gone to jail or even prison but she could choose her clients who would spend money on her for meals, clothes, jewelry, etc. She says the porn industry is much worse, and she calls it “The Devil’s Final Frontier,” because it is only about money and evil. She says it is all illusion like a magic show with the audience never knowing what is going on behind the scenes.

Shelley indicates that the scenes on the set of a hardcore porn film often involve one woman and six men, all of whom are doing degrading acts to the woman. And then the director will call “freeze,” and they have to hold those poses for five minutes while the lights are adjusted.

Shelley says there is no intimacy, and it is all mechanical and beastly. Often the women are vomiting off the set, and most of the actors are doing drugs and alcohol.

Shelley spent two years performing in hardcore porn and was in 20 films. When she did her first adult film something very “dark” came over her. And she says the devil told her, “See Shelley, I will make you famous, and THEN everyone will love you.”

PORN AFFECTS MARRIAGES

Shelley says watching porn with your spouse will not make for a healthier marriage. She wonders why you would want marriage advice from the “mentally ill and physically diseased?”

According to her stats, over 66 percent of the porn actors carry the herpes virus with many having Chlamydia and seven percent being HIV positive. It is standard to have sexual diseases in the porn industry.

Shelley says most often women begin to watch porn to please their spouses and also from the fear of losing their spouse. Women are usually more addicted to cyber sex found in chat rooms than to watching porn movies. She says this is because it feeds their fantasies of relationships.

HER WEB SITE MINISTRY

Eighteen months ago Shelley says the Lord woke her up and told her to put her testimony online. At that time Shelley had no idea of what she calls the “porn pandemic.” She is the only former porn actress that she knows that is publicly speaking out as a committed Christian. Now she gets thousands of hits each month on her site – many from sex addicts, Christians, and even from ministers.

She is most concerned that the Church seems to be ignoring the problem. The Church needs to wake up to the facts that close to 48 percent of the men in churches are viewing porn. Satan is smart and knows that the older generation doesn’t know how to operate computers, so he goes after the next generation.

Shelley has recently ministered to 400 youth from ages 12 to 23. Even kids in middle school have gone to church leaders but they are not prepared to minister to the deep needs. All they can say is, “I’ll pray for you.”

Shelley says there is power available to fight satan.

Rachel’s future uncertain after loss

There were no excuses this time. Not a single one. Rachel Alexandra, fit and supposedly ready after her stunning defeat in the New Orleans Ladies, came up short again Friday. This time it was in the La Troienne at Churchill Downs, where she finished second behind an undistinguished Grade 3 winner named Unrivaled Belle.

Rachel Alexandra is no longer the same horse. There was no other possible conclusion to come to after she was outfought in the stretch Saturday to lose the Grade 2 race in her second start this year. This first time out, her connections could at least argue that they had to rush to make the Fair Grounds race and they didn’t have last year’s Horse of the Year quite ready. Since then they have had nearly seven weeks to fine-tune her and get her right for a race everyone thought and hoped would get her back on track and, perhaps, ready for a showdown with Zenyatta. Considering that Rachel Alexandra could not have had a better trip, she was, if anything, worse Friday than she was in March. She prompted a very slow pace Friday and took over after a half-mile had been run in :48 4/5. Never in her entire career had she gone that slowly during an opening half-mile, and it was a big advantage over her rivals. She couldn’t clear the field, but she should have had plenty left in the tank when Unrivaled Belle came to her. At the point at which she was supposed to start spurting away and draw off to win by a dozen lengths, she instead found herself locked into a fight with the other filly. The Rachel Alexandra of 2009 would have buried this horse. The Rachel Alexandra of 2010 was beaten by a head. What’s wrong? That’s something trainer Steve Asmussen will have to figure out, but the best guess is that, for whatever reason, she has lost a step. It happens. Two of the best female runners of modern times, Winning Colors and Lady’s Secret, ended their careers on down notes, like old prizefighters hanging on too long. Winning Colors was 2-for-7 in her 4-year-old year, winning just an allowance and a small stakes at Turfway Park. Lady’s Secret went from Horse of the Year to an over-the-top 5-year-old who managed just two allowance wins in her final year of racing. Curlin — from the same connections as Rachel Alexandra — clearly wasn’t the same horse at the end of his career as he was before his trip to Dubai. Perhaps Rachel Alexandra’s historic 3-year-old campaign — in which she was 8-for-8, won at seven different racetracks and beat males three times — was simply too much for her. “I think there’s some hangover,” Asmussen said after the La Troienne. Here’s just one more reason Zenyatta is so amazing. She never has a bad day. She’s in her fourth year of racing and is a perfect 16-for-16 with more wins surely to come. What a horse. Asmussen said afterward he didn’t want to rush to any conclusions so quickly after the race, telling reporters: “We don’t need a knee-jerk reaction.” But he and owner Jess Jackson will have to quickly make some tough decisions about the filly’s future. They could probably get through the year and probably win a few races, maybe even some big ones … at least big ones that don’t include Zenyatta. But what would be the point of that? Rachel Alexandra set the bar so high last year that anything less than another extraordinary campaign would be unfitting and tarnish her legacy. No one, not even the Zenyatta zealots, should want to see that. Maybe Asmussen will find some very sound reason to expect he can bring Rachel back, but that’s unlikely. The prudent course will probably soon become obvious to Asmussen and Jackson, and Rachel Alexandra will be retired. That sure seems like the right thing to do. Bill Finley is an award-winning racing writer whose work has appeared in The New York Times, USA Today and Sports Illustrated. Contact him at wnfinley@aol.com.

Annette Edwards Jessica Rabbit

Annette Edwards: Jessica Rabbit

Annette Edwards

Annette Edwards wants to become Jessica Rabbit, goes through $16,000 plastic surgeries

Annette Edwards is a woman that wants to look like Jessica Rabbit, the cartoon character. In order to do so, the British 57-year old has spent $16,000 on plastic surgery.

Edwards is completely obsessed with cartoon character Jessica Rabbit and loves rabbits, so she did her best to try to look exactly like the redheaded beauty in classic cartoon films.

First, the British woman has decided to go on a diet, in order to try and copy cartoon character Jessica Rabbit’s slender waist. Since that was not at all enough, she decided to go under the knife in order to become her obsession. She got cheek and chin implants, as well as breast lift to look as close as possible to Jessica Rabbit.

She did a pretty good job, since she was invited to appear at various TV shows for England tv stations.

Considering all of the above, would you be surprised to hear that she is raising real rabbits, too? We didn’t think you would be…

Jessica Rabbit is a cartoon character that has appeared in the movie “Who Framed Roger Rabbit?”. She was voiced by Kathleen Turner.

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Bakersfield College

Bakersfield College, or BC, was established in 1913 as the campus of Bakersfield High School, which at that time was known as Kern County Union High School. The college is administrated by the California Community Colleges system. It covers more than 150 acres in northeast Bakersfield, California, and has two satellite campuses located in downtown Bakersfield and Delano, California. It is part of the Kern Community College District.

BC has more than 180 degree and certificate programs and is organized into several academic departments. Some of these departments are business education, computer programming, operating engineers, emergency medical technology, and human services.

Some of the student organizations of BC include the African-American Student Union, Colleges Against Cancer, Math Club, Business Club, Phi Theta Kappa, Tutoring Club, and many more.

The athletic teams of BC are referred to as the Renegades and they participate in the Western State Conference. The sports teams include men’s and women’s cross country, golf, basketball, football, soccer, softball, wrestling, and swimming.

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